I had initially intended to write this blog post to update you about my successful Disney 5K run and hopefully about my clear scans. Unfortunately, this post is just going to be about my bad scans. I had my PET scan as normal, but it showed a bright spot that the physician did not like. They immediately sent me for a MRI (which cuts a deeper imager than a PET). PETs can throw off false readings all the time. That is why they are more of a guide, just a screen. Went to see the physician this morning and believe it or not, it appears my cancer has returned. No not in my leg like the other 3 times, but this time in the BONE in my upper RIGHT ARM. I have been dealing with soft tissue cancer this whole time, so for it to now show up in my bone in another extremity is odd, to say the least.
My physician is taking my case in front of the tumor board tomorrow (that is a whole bunch of doctors that put their heads together to see what the best plan of action is). So for now, I just sit and wait and see what type of ideas they come up with to try and save my life. That is the medical part of the answers that I know right now. As soon as I know more about the next steps, I will keep you posted. Promise.
Here is the Cortney part I know. I'M PISSED!!!!!!!!! I have done EVERYTHING that has been asked of me and made EVERY sacrifice possible to make sure I am here to see my boy grow up. What have I done to deserve this a FOURTH time? I cut off my freaking leg because I was told it would dwindle my chances of recurrence to 10%. Now I am rewarded with a whole new problem in a whole new area.
I truly do not know how much more I can take. My family has been through enough. I had just gotten to a point where I was making plans for the future again. Looking forward to J's graduation in 2 years, looking for colleges, thinking about where Nick and I will live after he goes off to school, and building my travel agency that I love so much. And then BAM....nope it's back to thinking of dying every day of my life.
I will take all the prayers or good thoughts that you have! I don't have much more to say right now other than Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers, furbaby moms, grandmothers, surrogate mothers and friend mothers. Hug your loved ones close.
If you reach out and I don't get back quickly, I may just need some time so bare with me.
Love, Cort
Praying for you and your family…
Tammy
(Daniel’s mom)
Hi friend. There are no words … I am praying hard for you because hearing that damn diagnosis again is just the worst … it’s not fair. I am giving you a big virtual hug right now❤️😘🙏💪. I am a great listener is you want to talk scream cry or vent … or we can just sit in silence . I am here for you . You got this… I believe it. Much love
Oh my Cortney I am shocked and speechless. I just can’t find words! Honey may God bless you and get you through this. Please, please, please God heal this wonderful lady! I sure hope these Drs find some answers very quit. Hugs to you my dear. Prayers are being said !
Always positive thoughts and prayers my sweet girl! You are in the best hands - had a priest tell me once that,” “you are the strongest when you are the weakest!”— you my dear are a testament to that!!❤️
I’m not sure what to say, but I want you to know I care, I’m praying, and you are so loved.